Honestly life sucks right now.

I've been crying all this month. I've been feeling all alone. And today just made everything worse than ever, so much so that I almost ranaway and just........well you know stuff.

I gave up my family (I really love them but I just have given up on ever having a happy one).
Dad's hardly ever home (work)
mom as well (work)
sister's just a bitch from hell
brother is a fucking piece of shit

And my school isn't making it any better. My student teacher gave me a look of disgust because I didn't pick up something (I was really sad and I just couldn't do it, my whole just rejected my brain and didn't do anything) plus she also says my name with disgust (I've noticed). She's a bitch. I've been falling asleep when I don't want to.

I've tried to be happier, Alittle bit since I can only handle a little, but being home just sets me back to the phase one over and over, again and again.

I've given up on my sister. I just can't deal with her anymore. I'm going more insane as each day passes, just wishing for all this to end...........but it doesn't.

I just want to be happy.